Monday, April 2, 2012
Being a creative person seems to compete sometimes with the needs and really simply the "wants" of my family. They want me to be available and on call all the time. I don't dislike my job as a mother and wife. In fact I cherish it, however the challenge seems to be that sometimes I need to remind them that my sole existence on this planet is NOT to make their lives easier. I have a path as well. I don't want to get lost in their journey and at the end of my life wonder where mine went.
So today the quiet of my home just after 8 o'clock, on a Monday morning is priceless. They all 4 have their lunches that I packed for them and have left the house to make the most of each their days. I am here in the living room, at my computer ready to get some work done. The challenge is to get as much as I can get done before I can no longer ignore my surroundings of a house in shambles, screaming to get cleaned after the weekend of running from a dance competition, a cheer tryout, a friendly travel ball tournament and everything else in between.
So... here's to the journey. To not losing ourselves while we are growing and encouraging others. Here's to the sweet kiss goodbye by my eight year old son wishing me a great day as he heads off to school and to me being here to experience it. Here's to my 16 year old daughter telling me I'm going to miss making her lunches one day as she tries to direct what I put in her lunches. I have a sneaking suspicion she will miss it more than I! Lastly here's to awareness. The awareness that the greatest quest in my life is to seek balance and in doing so being present enough to love even the smallest of details on that journey.
Posted by Michelle E. Black at 8:34 AM